My husband is destroying our marriage with my past

Dear AY,
Please, how do I live with this shame and what my husband is doing to me? I am 32, married to a 36-year-old man. We got married three years ago and we are blessed with a son.

I married late and one of the major reasons for late marriage was because I detest men and, for a long time, will have nothing to do with them.

I was sexually harassed, raped and molested by my step-father and couldn’t tell anyone while these were going on. My father died when I was very young and my mother had to remarry when I was 12.

About a year after, my mother became pregnant, my step father started harassing me sexually and eventually raped me repeatedly. These continued until I confided in my mother’s relative, who took me away to stay with her.

My aunt really helped in rehabilitating me and she made sure I had the best education and a good life.

When I eventually found a man I felt I could trust enough to marry, we had no sex before marriage. I was, however, surprised to find out after marriage that my husband likes sex too much. This is a problem for me because, despite all the rehabilitation and counselling, I still don’t like sex.

My aunt advised that I confide in my husband, even before we got married about it because she felt he should know about my past from me and I did. Unfortunately, what I told him about myself is the weapon he is using against me.

He would abuse me and call me names. Sometimes, he accuses me of dating other men. Two  weeks ago, he said  maybe I enjoyed being raped and he attempted to rape me. Since that day, I have been scared of him. Please ,what can I do?  Help me.